Embrace the Brokenness
Apr 08, 2026
The last few months have been everything:
Love, grief, pain, joy, brokenness...
Becoming a mom for the second time —
Feeling empowered and...
Every single routine has been disrupted.
The body has gone through a voluntary
"car crash."
A wise spiritual woman, a mother of 4, shared:
"Embrace the brokenness —
Don't fight it."
And my whole body and being relaxed and softened.
Her words spoke to me of Leonard Cohen’s "Anthem":
There is a crack in everything,
That's how the light gets in.
Don't we all fight brokenness:
Of our lives,
Traumas,
The state of the world —
Trying to heal?
And when we pause...
Stop...
And let it be —
The brokenness —
That's how the light gets in.
That's how God enters.
This period has brought God into my life
On a whole new level.
So intimately.
And viscerally.
As I was in labour —
I was softening, not hardening.
Amidst pain — at times unbearable —
I was allowing.
The will of the heart over the force of the mind.
With the help of my doula,
Playing "Connecting with the Creator"
on repeat.
Not from a place of, "Why me? Poor me."
But from wanting to ride the waves
And not be in it alone.
Leaning toward pain, rather than
Running away.
The joy of having a baby and being sleep-deprived.
Thinking about my older son
While breastfeeding a newborn.
The complexity of it all.
Opening toward not fixing it,
But being...
With it.
With God.
And God with me.
That is healing.
That is wholeness.
Imperfectly perfect.
Unconditional love.
And God.
And life.
From this place,
And in this place,
You create:
Life...
Business...
A book...
Something else ...
Mariya