Work is Love Made Visible (Part 1)
Aug 26, 2025Happy last week of August!
This summer has been RICH!!!
And what I'd love to reflect on today (& the next few newsletters) is the topic of work. A new way to work.
I left academia as a tenured university professor in May 2019. It would be such a lie to say that I never looked back. I have - many times ... especially when anxiety or worry hit hard, and I wanted external stability. Rather than reaching deeper for internal conviction and certainty.
It's not always been an easy journey, yet I am so grateful I jumped ...
Today I dare to reflect on the past 6 years and begin to share some lessons:
#1.
Cultivating inner balance.
In any and every single area of my life, I have to say, it's all been about regulating the nervous system, learning to reach deeper inside of myself for trust and certainty, leaning into the unknown, cultivating intuition and heart connection, and making choices out of love and faith, not fear!!! Imperfectly, with mistakes.
#2.
For some people, it might be easier - for me, it hasn't been.
I didn't have a business or entrepreneurial background; I had tons of crazy and judgmental beliefs about money and work. I also had tons of childhood trauma. So, for some - the transition from working for someone to working for themselves might be an easy switch, but it hasn't been for me at all. And required tons of inner healing and transformation. The lesson has been about NOT comparing my pace, journey, style, timing, etc to anyone else! And knowing that not only am I not late, but I am right on time.
#3.
Letting go of external reward and performance.
I do things now because I enjoy doing them - a lot!!! Writing, speaking, working with clients, doing the healing work, sharing on social media, meeting and talking with inspiring people, doing my budget, and figuring out the tech.aspect etc.
Still, it's a business, meaning it brings a living income, yet I don't do things for money. I do them because I deeply love them. And they bring lots of satisfaction. There has been a switch, in the past years, from external to internal motivation.
And instead of trying to achieve accolades, status, or some position/box in society, now it's about loving what I do and BEING while I do it (merging the evolved aspects of masculine + feminine within me)
#4.
Letting go of money judgment and anxiety.
My old self would be proud of saying things like "Money is evil," "Money isn't spiritual," etc.
My new self pays for things in a restaurant and says, "Thank you, Universe, that I have money for this food."
I had to learn a lot about money, budget, staying organized, manifesting, being creative, bypassing money sometimes, opening to receive, feeling worthy of money, and understanding that it's ok to get paid for doing something you love.
And ... here is a thing (a bit counter-intuitive), I also had to reject some job opportunities that would pay me well, but weren't aligned. They would take me back to self-sacrifice and not being authentic, and playing some role.
In that way, I had to learn and gain courage progressively, with baby steps, to make choices and decisions from the heart and not scarcity or fear. Even though sometimes it was very uncomfortable.
#5.
Dismantling concepts of what work is and isn't.
In the last 6-ish years, I have interacted with enough creatives, entrepreneurs, guides, healers, writers, social media people, artists, programmers, scientists who do things in a new way, that if I were to describe their job, I couldn't in traditional terms.
The old definition of "work" is evolving. I never could have imagined that what I do now is possible for work!
It's multi-faceted, multi-disciplinary, out-of-the-box, constantly evolving, creative, etc. And I have so many ideas of how it can keep shifting and growing - yet, I am not too attached to them. I am open.
It required changing the mindset a lot!!! From traditional employment to being ok with these multi-dimensional working arrangements that have plenty of uncertainty.
There is still
- structure
- deep commitment
- dedication
- discomfort (often)
And, there is lots of LOVE, JOY, and CREATIVITY...